Sometimes

Dear Yuri,

Am I allowed to sometimes feel trapped, anxious and sad in the morning but feel relaxed, optimistic and happy by lunch?

Am I allowed to sometimes enjoy it and not want it to end because I love the new slower pace of life?

Am I allowed to sometimes hate it not only because I miss the big things like family and friends, but because I really miss the trivial things too?

Am I allowed to sometimes feel guilty for not quarantining well enough?
Not learning the right new skills, learning them fast enough of well enough?

Am I allowed to sometimes feel nothing?

Am I allowed?
Am I?

I am
I am allowed

I am allowed to feel nothing, or something, or everything.
All at once.
And I do.
Sometimes.

Ross, Margate, England


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