Im So Confused

Dear Yuri,

I don’t know how to tell my parents that I’m Pansexual cause I like the girl across the street from me but I also have a crush on a boy from my school. My older brother knew I liked him so he dared me to ask him out he said no but he said we can still be friends. I was hurt but I got over it later on. Here’s the thing the girl that I like dating the boy that I like and she knows that I liked her and she knew that I liked him to.

The reason why I’m not straight is because the boys around me ruined me, did things I didn’t want, but I didn’t want to make them mad so I did what they wanted.They used me I feel like girls know boundaries and more understanding and not abusing their relationship with what they want. (Not trying to be sexist) it’s just the boys I’ve been with were not for me at all. I like people for their personality not really their looks.

I’m not sure how I’m gonna tell my parents cause they’re always judging when I’m watching someone who’s not straight. My stepdad also said if I was Lesbian or Bisexual he would beat me to a bloody pole, then he would be OK with me being whatever I am. I don’t like that so I don’t know when to tell them. Another thing is when LGBTQ+ pops up they get disgusted. Then they ask me if I support I say of course.

Another thing I forgot was I asked the girl out she said no, this was before she was dating the boy. I was awkward cause she is the first friend that I had a crush on and she was there through thick and thin. We had beef but were best friends again now. She friend zoned when I asked her out. I was scared cause if we did start dating how was I gonna tell my parents? It was all complicated.

I don’t know what to do so I write down my feelings.

Alyssa, Chicago, USA